I find it all ironic. . . .

Most days of the year are unremarkable. They begin, and they end, with no lasting memories made in between. Most days have no impact on the course of a life. Aug 23rd was a Tuesday

Forgiveness

Forgiveness is a decision to let go of resentment and thoughts of revenge. The act that hurt or offended you may always remain a part of your life, but forgiveness can lessen its grip on you and help you focus on other, positive parts of your life. Forgiveness can even lead to feelings of understanding, empathy and compassion for the one who hurt you.

Forgiveness doesn't mean that you deny the other person's responsibility for hurting you, and it doesn't minimize or justify the wrong. You can forgive the person without excusing the act. Forgiveness brings a kind of peace that helps you go on with life.

Forgiveness is a commitment to a process of change, you'll no longer define your life by how you've been hurt.

Surrender is the only option

I recently made a post about betrayal, and how it made me feel. I also recently had a conversation about it, in which I opened up again about how I feel about the subject of Honest, Trust, Loyalty and Betrayal in which someone else told me this . . .

I am putting it here to remind myself of what it means to surrender and what must happen for that to take place.

<Name Left Blank> In my opinion there are two things that stand in the way of a kajira's surrender
<Name Left Blank> When she does not know the nature of the person she is giving away. And when she does not know the nature of the person she is giving herself to.
<Name Left Blank> Being lied to is in the second category.
<Name Left Blank> For surrender you need trust. And for trust you need a man strong enough to be honest.
<Name Left Blank> When you lie to someone you mold the world around their expectations, and you are a slave to them and to the situation.

Very Interesting points, indeed.

I thought the issue was my jealousy  . . . .  apparently it isn't.

For your own protection

Words of wisdom from beth

#44

your self identity should be so strong that when someone walks away from you, they don't take you with them.

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#43

The reason people find it so hard to be happy is they find the past to be better than it was and the present to be worse than it is.

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#42

People are like music.

Some speak the truth.
Some are just background noise.

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#41

I've done alot of thinking about Jealousy this week.

Women always seem to compete. Competing is about comparing yourself to others.

Don't compare yourself to others, that's when you lose confidence in yourself.

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#40

Closeness has nothing to do with Distance and everything to do with Intimacy.

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#39

Don't overthink.
You'll create a problem that wasn't really there.

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#38

You can't lose what you never had
You can't keep what was never yours
and you can't make someone stay who wants to go.

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#37

Don't cry because the left, smile . . .

because they gave  you an opportunity to find someone better.

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#36

Be happy in front of people who don't like you.

It KILLS them.

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#35

Learn to let go of things you can not control.

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#34

When you put faith, hope and love together . . . you can raise positive kids in a negative world.

Become a You Tube Sensation, and make it on the Ellen show!

Ignorance is bliss

Sometimes knowing too much overwhelms you with thoughts and you can’t seem to stop thinking about a particular issue. Then you’d wish you never knew.

The term does not necessarily mean ignorant of literal surroundings or events but instead ignorant of worries and suffering.

Now, I am left perplexed, exactly what was it about the situation that left me worried and suffering?

I think, I felt I had been lied too, betrayed. I don't even think this was about jealousy, I think this was more about honesty and how I felt I wasn't getting it.

The Puppet Master Series

Master downloaded The Puppet Master Series for me to watch, all 9 of them. For those of you who don't know it, I adore horror movies as much as I do sex . . . . okay, that was a stretch, but funny :)

The Puppet Master is your typical B rated movie, with a low budget and bad writing, it reminds me of a badly written porno. Surprisingly though, I enjoyed every minute of it! LOL

Immortals

Immortals is a movie that I really had been looking forward to for quite some time, plus when you hear that the 300 producers are on board you know that you are going to be in for a visual treat.

And that is exactly what you get, this movie is visually very beautiful as the CGI has been crafted with a real sense of care, giving it the feel of an old epic.

Much like 300 the movie is about the battle and the violence rather than having a deep and meaningful story, and artistic licences were taken when it comes to the story of mythology, but it is an entertaining ride all the same.

Henry Cavill has plenty to do from a physical perspective in this movie, and it has to be said he looks incredible, but there is not much in terms of character development, and the really great movies develop characters and make you feel for the people involved in the movies.

Mickey Rourke is perfectly cast as King Hyperion; cruel, evil, violent Rourke really does embody this character and brings a real air of menace to the role, I loved him when he was younger and am glad to see him making a come back.

But what is very disappointing about the movie is the real lack of action from the Gods, there’s only one major scene coming towards the end of the film - which I think is a major shame, so much more could have been done. I look forward to a second movie and much more action from them.

Singh must be congratulated for the stunning spectacle that he has created with this movie if the script and the characters could have matched the look of the film then we would have been in for one hell of a ride. I watched a clip on tv about the extensive care taken to make sure the fight scenes were not chopping and edited too much, which I like because nothing ruins a movie more than choppy fight scenes.

Having said that Immortals is a fast paced story, if a little simple, but it is a fun movie that really does transport you to another world and is highly entertainable, and that is what makes it good, but it had the potential to be great.

Immortals was much better than last year’s Clash of the Titans remake but it failed to reach the dizzy heights of the fab 300.

But I still think it kicked ass and I highly recommend it!

An Investment

I went into the city today and gave into buying some shoes. 120 dollar shoes. Shoes that are ugly beyond comprehension. Now that I am working, I walk about 5 miles a day at least. I had to invest in them.

Alegria Paloma Shoes

Fear

I feel like I have a muzzle on my mouth that I chose to put there for safety purposes, but I don't like it at all because that's just not who I am. I want to rip it off!!! The truth is...I'm afraid to. My solace is in knowing that my true self will ultimately win over my fear

Music Flashback

Tina Turner - what you see is what you get

Sunny Sweeney - A Good ole Texan

From A Table Away




Everybody Else can Kiss my Ass



Drink myself Single




Stayin is worse than Leavin

This is Sunny Sweeney, I adore her. She is so down to earth and very funny. I had the luxury of meeting her and hearing her play a while back in Birmingham  and although these videos are not mine, I was present that day and am glad someone got it on video. Here are some of my favorite songs of hers.

Besides, ya gotta love a girl who chews gum, drinks and has a cross on her guitar strap while singing. :)

I keep forgetting

This is a song I have many a times drank too when I was getting over an ex.

Books

Have you read more than 6 of these books? The BBC believes most people will have read only 6 of the 100 books listed here. 

• Bold those books I've read in their entirety.

• Italicize the ones I've started but didn't finish or read only an excerpt.

1 Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen

2 The Lord of the Rings - JRR Tolkien

3 Jane Eyre - Charlotte Bronte

4 Harry Potter series - JK Rowling

5 To Kill a Mockingbird - Harper Lee

6 The Bible

7 Wuthering Heights - Emily Bronte 

8 Nineteen Eighty Four - George Orwell

9 His Dark Materials - Philip Pullman

10 Great Expectations - Charles Dickens

11 Little Women - Louisa M Alcott

12 Tess of the D’Urbervilles - Thomas Hardy

13 Catch 22 - Joseph Heller

14 Complete Works of Shakespeare 

15 Rebecca - Daphne Du Maurier 

16 The Hobbit - JRR Tolkien

17 Birdsong - Sebastian Faulk

18 Catcher in the Rye - JD Salinger

19 The Time Traveler’s Wife - Audrey Niffenegger

20 Middlemarch - George Eliot

21 Gone With The Wind - Margaret Mitchell 

22 The Great Gatsby - F Scott Fitzgerald

24 War and Peace - Leo Tolstoy 

25 The Hitch Hiker’s Guide to the Galaxy - Douglas Adams

27 Crime and Punishment - Fyodor Dostoyevsky

28 Grapes of Wrath - John Steinbeck

29 Alice's Adventures in Wonderland - Lewis Carroll

30 The Wind in the Willows - Kenneth Grahame

31 Anna Karenina - Leo Tolstoy

32 David Copperfield - Charles Dickens

33 Chronicles of Narnia - CS Lewis 

34 Emma -Jane Austen

35 Persuasion - Jane Austen

36 The Lion, The Witch and the Wardrobe - CS Lewis

37 The Kite Runner - Khaled Hosseini

38 Captain Corelli’s Mandolin - Louis De Bernieres 

39 Memoirs of a Geisha - Arthur Golden

40 Winnie the Pooh - A.A. Milne

41 Animal Farm - George Orwell

42 The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown

43 One Hundred Years of Solitude - Gabriel Garcia Marquez

44 A Prayer for Owen Meaney - John Irving

45 The Woman in White - Wilkie Collins 

46 Anne of Green Gables - LM Montgomery

47 Far From The Madding Crowd - Thomas Hardy

48 The Handmaid’s Tale - Margaret Atwood

49 Lord of the Flies - William Golding

50 Atonement - Ian McEwan

51 Life of Pi - Yann Martel

52 Dune - Frank Herbert

53 Cold Comfort Farm - Stella Gibbons

54 Sense and Sensibility - Jane Austen

55 A Suitable Boy - Vikram Seth

56 The Shadow of the Wind - Carlos Ruiz Zafo

57 A Tale Of Two Cities - Charles Dickens

58 Brave New World - Aldous Huxley

59 The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time - Mark Haddon

60 Love In The Time Of Cholera - Gabriel Garcia Marquez

61 Of Mice and Men - John Steinbeck

62 Lolita - Vladimir Nabokov

63 The Secret History - Donna Tartt

64 The Lovely Bones - Alice Sebold

65 Count of Monte Cristo - Alexandre Dumas

66 On The Road - Jack Kerouac

67 Jude the Obscure - Thomas Hardy

68 Bridget Jones’s Diary - Helen Fielding

69 Midnight’s Children - Salman Rushdie

70 Moby Dick - Herman Melville

71 Oliver Twist - Charles Dickens

72 Dracula - Bram Stoker

73 The Secret Garden - Frances Hodgson Burnett

74 Notes From A Small Island - Bill Bryson

75 Ulysses - James Joyce 

76 The Inferno - Dante

77 Swallows and Amazons - Arthur Ransome

78 Germinal - Emile Zola

79 Vanity Fair - William Makepeace Thackeray

80 Possession - AS Byatt

81 A Christmas Carol - Charles Dickens

82 Cloud Atlas - David Mitchell

83 The Color Purple - Alice Walker

84 The Remains of the Day - Kazuo Ishiguro

85 Madame Bovary - Gustave Flaubert

86 A Fine Balance - Rohinton Mistry

87 Charlotte’s Web - E.B. White

88 The Five People You Meet In Heaven - Mitch Albom

89 Adventures of Sherlock Holmes - Sir Arthur Conan Doyle

90 The Faraway Tree Collection - Enid Blyton

91 Heart of Darkness - Joseph Conrad

92 The Little Prince - Antoine De Saint-Exupery

93 The Wasp Factory - Iain Banks

94 Watership Down - Richard Adams

95 A Confederacy of Dunces - John Kennedy Toole

96 A Town Like Alice - Nevil Shute

97 The Three Musketeers - Alexandre Dumas

98 Hamlet - William Shakespeare

99 Charlie and the Chocolate Factory - Roald Dahl

100 Les Miserables - Victor Hugo

Did your conscience bother you?

People are predictable, I really wish they weren't.

You should've lied to me baby.

You overestimated me, thinking I would understand, believing that your honesty would make me see a bigger person.

You should've tried a little bit harder, baby.

zombies

Observation

the longest days are the ones spent waiting for the one you love.

Words of wisdom from beth

#33

Learn to admit your mistakes, before someone else exaggerates them.

scrabble words for the day

addax : Large antelope with lightly spiraled horns of desert regions of northern Africa

cylix : A shallow drinking cup with two handles; used in ancient Greece

gox : gaseous oxygen

Words of wisdom from beth

#32

a relationship without trust is like a car without gas.

you can stay in it all you want, but it won't go anywhere.

Music - Nickel Back

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#31

Men have two emotions

Hungry and Horny

if you see him without an erection. . .

make him a sammich.

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#30

Don't take me for granted, unlike others, i'm not afraid to walk away.

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#29

People believe that if you love someone hard enough, then everything is gonna work out. . .

they're wrong.

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#28

Don't be so quick to believe everything you hear

Lies spread faster than truth.

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#27

When your past calls . . .

let it go to voicemail.

It really has nothing new to say, anyhow.

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#26

Worrying  is like walking around with an open umbrella, waiting for it to rain. seems a bit silly doesn't it?

Words of wisdom from beth

#25

You have to do what is right for you
even if it means hurting those you love.

Respect

I really respect those who stay strong when they had every right to breakdown.

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#24

I see alot of girls running around claiming to be kajira.

I see alot of boys running around claiming to be Men.

Stop trying to be something you're not. You'll end up with something you don't want.


Haven't you learned already?

Investment Insurance

Pardon me if it seems like I'm always sweating you
I just feel I gotta do it before I start investing in you

The Chase

And now it begins, you will see.
Once you are gone
my game gets stronger
In love with pursuit

I will seduce you with ink,
blot out the night
and invent new stars.

I will sew you to my side
nevermore shall you roam,
without the outline of my chase
branded on your heart.

my heart

My heart is a mermaid with a necklace of anchors

100 things about me - 25 - 50

25. I have a fear of toe stubbing. I seem to do it all the time. (Translation: I’m a klutz)

26. i brush my teeth in the shower

27. i have eaten while sitting on the toilet. what goes in must come out.

28. i am very artistic and creative. I wish i went to art school.29. I never thought it would happen, but I can’t keep up with the latest songs, artists or what’s on the radio. in highschool, i could tell you the top 25 in every genre.

30. I give great advice to others and never seem to listen to my own.

31. I have been accused of being a know it all.

32. I love playing 9 ball.

33. I don't believe in soul mates.

34. I still don't know what size bra I should be wearing. I'm 33.

35. I always have to get popcorn when I watch a movie.

36. I really hate knick knacks, it's just more shit to dust off and means more cleaning.

37. Every time there is an NCIS marathon, I seem to be watching it, even though I don't particularly care for NCIS.

38. my middle name is Ann, and it runs in the family.

39. my sun sign is Pisces. my moon sign is Leo.

40. I've been white water rafting.

41. I've been on the vomit comet.

42. I don't have any children and once was very depressed about it and thought it meant I had no worth as a female.

43. I have a fear of drowning.

44. I'm good at solving twisty logic problems

45. But I suck at straight forward math.

46. Like Scout from “To Kill a Mockingbird”, I don’t remember ever not knowing how to read.

47. I dislike perfume, scented candles and most other artificially scented products

48. When it comes to money, i;ve been richer than most, and now i'm poorer than most.

49. I don't understand why people crave final answers and certainty. Nobody wants to go into a physical space and stay there for their entire life. They want to move around and see different things. So why do they feel any different about mental spaces?

50. It's difficult to make me truly angry, but someone who succeeds would be surprised by how long I can hold a grudge. It is, however, tremendously easy to annoy me. Some people do it by merely existing.

Words of wisdom from beth

#23

pay no mind to those who talk behind your back, it only means you're two steps ahead of them :P

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#22

Consistency : is the virtue of character.

and it is only a virtue if you're not fucking up to begin with.

cool tattoo

VNN

Funny

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#25

An argument is to find out

who is right

A discussion is to find out

what is right.

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#24

it takes knowledge to stop doing something wrong.
but
it takes wisdom to keep doing something right

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#23

When you think about it, Rock bottom is the best place to really start over. When you are on the bottom there really is no place to go but UP.

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#22

Love is absolute loyalty.
Looks fade, money gets spent.
Time gets used.
a loyal person is dependable and always there when you need them, you can set your watch to them.
to me that's love, even if it's not very exciting.

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#21

People inevitably want you more after you have moved on, don't sacrifice what you have because they missed their chance!

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#20

Do more than belong, participate.
Do more than care, help.
Do more than believe, practice.
Do more than be fair, be kind.
Do more than forgive, forget.
Do more than submit, surrender.

Surrender is the only option

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#19

Jealousy is when we court someone else's blessings instead of our own.

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#18

We always ignore the ones who adore us and adore the ones who ignore us.

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#17

sometimes the person who gives you strength is your biggest weakness.

ya know . . .

The problem isn't that we don't get to spend any time together anymore . . . .

it's when we are together,

neither of us are really there.

sighs . . . .

off to the grind stone . . . .

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#16

Most people, like myself . . .

are made entirely of flaws

and stitched together

with good intentions.

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#15

SEX

it takes the least amount of time

and causes the most amount of trouble.

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#14

I believe there are three constants in life

Everyone has

an irreversible regret

an unreachable dream

and an

unforgettable love.

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#13

Women say all the time

Real men are hard to find

the truth of the matter is . . .

they come across those men all the time, and they simply didn't interest them.

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#12

Life is full of fake people, before you start judging them,

make sure you aren't one of them.

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#11

The real difference between the mind and the heart is . . .

Your mind tells you the smart thing to do,
and your heart . . .

it tells you what you are going to do anyway . . .